hmmmmmmm....

so how are you all?
i'm fine just a rainy day and kinda bored,
VERY EARLY SWIMMING PRACTICE FROM 5:30 AM TO 7:00AM SUCKS!
but don't worry about me i'm fine.........

well i'm wondering if i should write my poem........
hmmmmmmmmmm.....
aw hell it doesn't matter what you all care(no offense) but this is my blog so here goes:

My Soliloquy

Some people say i am too quite,
Stand-offish,
And i should open up,
But how can i trust other people,
Who might have ulterior motives?
I've heard of people being raped and taken advantage of,
But now i've also seen it,
How can i trust the ones i love?
I don't even trust myself,
Yet people expect me to open up,
Become socially active,
Laugh out loud,
And speak with a strong voice,
When the thing is,
I do try,
I want to,
But when i yell,
It is only a whisper,
And when i whisper,
It becomes a yell.
I have shown people the lighter side and the darker side of me,
When really,
I truly don't know myself,
So how can i trust others,
And when they comment on my personality,
Is it an innocent conversation,
Or an argument meant to stab me in the back?
Revolting as it seems,
This soliloquy sums it up,
With my feelings,
Thoughts,
Dreams,
Aspirations,
All clumped up into a muddle of nothingness.
Of all the days of my life,
I chose today for my soliloquy,
My speech,
Written to all,
Yet heard by none.

{sigh}
yep well that's it.................hope you all like it.....so...........


bye.