IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

well, i just went out to eat at Rizzi's with my mom and brother for lunch. it was soooo good and now i'm so happy i just don't know what to do...........maybe i'll go bike riding......i mean the weather's good..........oh! and none of my friends have called, e-mailed, or done anything to reach me and tell me happy birthday.............well i celebrated with them so they suck and i'm mad at them.................MAD.......SO MAD..............THAT I WILL NOT TALK TO THEM TILL THEY TELL ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!................HMPH!

*maybe they can't call*
SO?
*maybe they forget*
SOOOOOOOO?
*you forget things too*
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO?
*you can forgive them this once*
FINE YOU ARE ALL FORGIVEN.HAPPY NOW?
*yes.*
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR................
*i'll be leaving now.......(door slams and running feet)*

shining down on ME! ;)

the weather i soooooooooooooooooo beautiful i mean i get so happy when the sun shines....can you tell?
well how is everyone doing? i'm quite dandy thankyou very much! i can't wait to go outside on my bike to my favorite hangout at this playgroung.....hey i like swinging on swings okay? i LOVE IT because it's like i'm flying and oh i can just think about everything and nothing with the sun shining down on me! *sigh* so beautiful..........okay now i REALLY want to go so buh bye!

on spring break.....

well i'm on SPRING BREAK but............really...........i'm totally bored i mean all i do is sit at home............i want to go and ride my bike but it's boring to go alone...........but anyways have you ever had a day where you found so much problems (family, school, church, world, etc.) in the world that you just wanted to curl up and forget it all............well let's just say my extended family is envious of us, i myself am adding to pollution every second of every day, and a little kid has more faith in God than i do.............not very fun day but i'll live.........i think........of course until the predicted ice age comes from global warming..............but who wants to talk about death right now...........not me.....................

In the Storm

forget the world,
forget the troubles,
and remember that....
somewhere in the hatred and anger there's love,
hidden between the thorns,
waiting for a heart to hold on to,
a heart that pushed through and with all the scars and cuts from battles,
finally entering and reaching the love that was always there,
so turn away from the hatred and anger,
and push through to a love that shines and stands strong,
even in the midst of a wild storm.

WOW!that cheered me up and i hope it cheered you up. well i will push through the thorns of life and come out victorious even with my wounds and scars. *sigh* well now i have nothing else to talk about so i hope you all have a nice evening....morning....afternoon.....etc. whatever...BYE ;)

A Mix of Colors

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY! NO IAM NOT IRISH!

anyways this guy at school thinks he has figured me all out and he smiled at me.................well i just GLARED AT HIM UNTIL MY EYEBALLS FELL OUT OF THERE SOCKETS{maybe that was too graphic for people out there with heart failures}
anyways do you know what he did!...............he TRIPPED ME AND THEN CAUGHT ME{just because he caught me does not mean he's nice} and the whole day he made fun of me saying "don't trip".....................UGH YOU KNOW THOSE KIND OF GUYS YOU HAVE TO WATCH YOUR BACK EVERY SECOND FOR JUST TO MAKE SURE THEY DON'T DO ONE MORE THING TO YOU THAT THEY CAN MAKE FUN OF YOU FOR...............also right before that he had said "Jessica, you're being so mean to me lately." just because i told him he did a bad job and got a C on his paper.............well he deserved it and then he looked at me with this silly green hat on and tried to make me look at him.........................Ugh.............well i just held up my folder right in front of his face and then do you know what he did................HE LAUGHED..........AND THAT IS THE THING THAT IRRITATES ME THE MOST .....................FINE YOU LAUGH ON BEN BAISER BUT I'LL GET YOU......ONE DAY WHEN YOUR DOODLING ON YOUR SILLY NOTEBOOK............I'LL GET YOU ND YOU WILL STOP MESSIN WITH ME!{HMPH}

okay well i'm sick of caps lock and i'm all madded out{if that's even a word} and i just want to say to all those people {audrey} who bring up things like past crushes who right now those people don't like anymore need to grow up and learn that people like me don't like anyone of their old crushes anymore and they should not write any more comments if that is all they will write about and that is final!

{phew!} that was a mouthful!

this is a very beutiful color.................

The Dancer

her beautiful eyes linger on that one true love,
and she sighs,
that one true love was nothing to her but a mess,
she smiles a vibrant smile that dazzles the audience,
her feet start to moe and she begins a graceful, strong dance,
the music flowing with her,
the audience entranced in her every move,
her body twirling to the beat,
her dress swinging as if a breeze blew it,
she dances the dance her mother taught her as a little girl,
no one stopped her,
she danced till she could feel her feet no more,
but the steps came naturally,
just like her mother,
the best dancer she could ever think of,
but then she remembers the hospital and her feet quicken,
tears are streaming down her face and she dances faster and faster,
no sound but her feat faster and faster,
someone wants to stop her but they can't,
and she dances and dances and slowly fades away until her feet are only heard,
tapping faster and faster........
and then silence.

>that came at the spur af the moment but it's beautiful isn't
her heart and soul in that one dance
her last
well........i think i'm gonna cry.............nope i won't it's not that sad........or is it............or maybe i'm just crazy that i don't see that i should be crying.........or maybe i just screwed up the poem wiht my babbling on and on and on and on and on and on................oh i know who did this to me.......it was Audrey allllllll Audrey,................you messed my mind up.........i can't think because of you ..........how could you...............you ruined my life.............i am never speaking to you again...............................................
..................................................*next day*..............................................
"hey audrey, what's up?"
"nuthin' you?"
"nuthin', see ya later"
"bye"

>that will not happen..........you just wait till tomorrow........i'll show you missy!{hmph}
*she walks away all mad and forgets to turn the computer off.............well here she comes again, bye*

STUPID DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For many people i seem like the kind who is crazy.................when really i'm alone..................you'd think someone like me had friends................yeah i do.............but that doesn't mean I have everything.............friends can be friends but they're not just around you to listen to your problems..........they're there because they like you...........you are fun and energetic................if one day i was glum...........i would have no friends................of course what am i complaining about...........lots of people have it worse than me.......................i am a complainer..................but lets just say i had a bad day from dean's detentions to missing the bus............not very fun!

HEY!

HEY!
i know i haven't gotten any comments, but that's okay!
Anyways.................

today everyone was getting me so mad..............see i was wearing a sweatshirt and a couple of guys just thought of the bright idea to put my hood up and i got sooooooooo mad at them that i glared at them...........and then do you know what they did.................THEY LAUGHED AT ME...............THOSE JERKS..................UGH......I AM SOOOOOOO MAD............THEY NEED TO GET A GRIP!........................well now that i've cooled off there was this other guy who just thought it would be funny if my seay had fish juice on it and so i put it on his seat..........he saw me and still sat down and he looked at me all happy that my seat was messed and he suddenly remembered that his seat had juice on it too! HA i burst out laughing and he stood up all mad at himself.............i was gagging! Phew can't wait till tomorrow anyways, my friend gets really upset at these guys but...........i just can't help laughing! i mean one day this guy is really mad at us and calls us two-faced for no reason............i mean he really emphasizes it and the naxt day he's like,"Hi Shavantay and friends." and walks out and i'm just like what the hell and burst out laughing and Shavantay is just so mad..........i think she needs to relax but i helped her calm down....i think but anyways oh wait.....there's more.at the end of the day i say"hi" to that guy because they said hi and i like being polite (unlike my other friend) and the same guy who called us two-faced and says "hi shavantay and friends" says "hi shavantay's friend"..........i mean he still had the nerve to say that and i just burst out laughing{i mean it may not sound funny to you but the way he said it seemed strained like he was trying to make me feel bad and then when i laughed he looked so confused-i guess it's my ironic laughter?!} then i kinda joked(because i knew he knew my name) and said "don't you know my name"and "why're you callin' me that" and he was so flustered that he looked in his friends locker and his friends like "man you think too much".................anyways i would burst out laughing right now but i'm holding it in..........oh no..........here it comes ........... BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHA........................ETC.[soon Jessica laughs so much she has a loss of oxygen and dies];) just kiddin'
Lylas

Life is not all about boyfriends.

Sometimes i look at the world and wonder............."what the hell am i here for?"
Some of my friends are very confused.
One goes from one guy to another............she says she likes them and a week later they're gone.........
Another one says she thinks she's in love................and then a week later she forgot all about her "love" and he's left wondering if she still likes him..........

They don't know what true love is.............and maybe i don't either but I liked a guy for a year and a half and that took a long time to get over him......he's after another girl now and i don't like him anymore............the way i did and i don't need a guy to be content.......................i have guy- friends and girl-friends and i am perfectly happy..........i have crushes here and there but who doesn't?............Life is not all about boyfriends.

Murder on my Mind

i'm creeping up the stairs............
why do you ask?
i'm home all alone and I heard footsteps upstairs.
i grabbed my humongous steak knife and ran upstairs.
what if it was a burgler............i mean I DON'T WANT TO KILL WHOEVER IT IS IN MY HOUSE.................but it might be fun [evil cackle]

just kidding;)
[not]
no...........really i am joking;)

anyways that story is boring now so you can hear all about me now.
i am a beautiful girl whom you may never know and probably want to.

anyways..........school's tough and my "friends" are not really my friends..............they act all crazy and freaky...............and.........they're scheming to kill me...........especially Shavantay,one of my "best friends".
yep........that's you Shavantay..........i know you're reading this........i've allready seen your plans on blueprint so don't be messin' with me.

anyways bye!:)