just stuff

for all i know,
i may be the stupidest person in the world,
ya know,
i give people advice and yet....
ignore my own advice....................
maybe i'll just keep my own thoughts to myself now on,
and back to finals,
gues what?!
{traumatic gasp}
i got a STUPID 87% ON MY BIOLOGY FINAL....................i studied too long and too hard..................................................................


well atleast i got a B! :D
*(deep voice)you know your mad*
sigh..........yes but what will that help so...........

Health-duh! A+
Biology- B
Debate-F-----------------(etc.)
Band-A+
Spanish-A/A+
History-A/B/C
Algebra-A/B+

well i guess my assumtions will be correct...............now tomorrow Spanish............yeah right like i'm gonna study.......'/'....................'\'...................{quietly opens book and starts mumbling}
*i seeee yoooooouuuuuuuu*
IT'S NOT LIKE IM STUDYING BECAUSE IM REALLY NERVOUS!



but seriously i'm not nervous.........................anyways...........have you ever had this person who you were really nervous around(let's call him Nick)..............so Nick just is always there but you never now what to say and when you ACTUALLY act normal(you don't know he's there or you somehow keep your blood pressure down and keep from swetting buckets) you feel soooooooo stupid like what you said was really pathetic........ you know what i mean......................please say you do..........or am i alone with these thoughts...................the only person who thinks like this........................please say you understand or...nod your head atleast(or you could just comment) PLEASE ANYTHING!
*get ahold of yourself please.............your embarrasing me in front of the cute guy on the computer who's rading your post*
oh sorry.......hehehe................(whispers to herself) it's not him is it?
*of course it is you dimwit*
damn it............i mean i didn't say that.................(grumbles)why can't i be comfortable around him
* sigh..he left*
what?!
*he got freaked out*
(face starts getting red with anger and hot air blows out of ears) NOONE'S PERFECT IMEAN JUST BECAUSE HE'S SOOOOOOOO SELF-CENTERED AND A DIMWIT DOES NOT MEAN HE CAN JUST THINK EVERYONE'S PERFECT I MEAN HE'S NOT PERFECT I BET HE HAS SOME SECRET THAT I SOOOOOO DISGUSTING THAT HE HASN'T TOLD ANYONE..........
*you better leave..........she's freakin' out again*
YOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUU I AM NOT FREAKIN' OUT-YOU ARE
* but i'm you so that means you are*
YOU.....(*see ya tomorrow*)

Is Death Good or Bad?

i got the inspiration from the pastor's sermon in church so i hope you like it!:D

To some,
Death is evil,
A killing poison that never should happen,
To others,
Death is good,
A thing that should happen to all their foes,
And for me?
Death is wonderful yet dreadful,
It teaches lessons yet brings unhappiness,
A good person,
Kind and giving and caring,
May die,
And we weep and even blame God,
Yet when someone who wants to die does not,
We also weep and blame God,
But have you ever thought,
God has a purpose for everyone,
The good fulfilled their lives and so,
It was their time to die,
To teach the "bad" a lesson,
To change the "bad",
To help them understand what the point of life is,
To become like Jesus,
Become the good Samaritan,
Become the person God wanted us to be,
He died for us,
Can't we do this little favor?
Are we too selfish?
All of us can try to be Jesus,
Or be the good Samaritan,
Or be "good" people,
To live happily,
To die peacefully,
Knowing you did your best,
This is Death to me.
And as I write this poem,
I can feel God looking down on me,
And smiling,
Along with all the others who died for a good cause.

And....-had to add that little part for Memorial's Day

Sorry to all the people who are weeping now for all their loved ones who have passed to the other world, but remember-they are very happy where they are!:)

-God bless everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the ending?

creeping quickly,
walking slowly,
through the shadow's mist of sleep,
narrowly missing an arrow,
meant to kill a heart so deep,
for we know the end is near,
yet we walk on till we hear,
someone there to comfort always,
never leaving till the end,
gently now we hear the voices,
singing till the dawn shows bliss,
somehow now,
we know we've found it,
running quickly till the end,
turn the corner,
all is seen,
darkness with a light so clean,
for i know i'll reach it,
someday now i know i'll reach it.

a dark secret

forever lost in deep shadows depth,
forever roaming in endless unrest,
unconquering joy shall persist it's mission,
yet sadness fills the wary minds,
of folks who try too hard to be,
when all they know is the wrong means to see,
gently not tenderly forward we march,
in darkness forward,
to nowhere in sight,
so persistently we seek,
a newfound being,
to hold and hold,
till all has disappeard,
in silence for now,
screams heard ahead,
make us tremble head to toe,
with unmistakable fate,
for it is too late to turn around and see,
when all we now is the truth shall come,
foreboding and frightening the truth shall come,
and we will see at once,
what we've always waited for.

Bored out of my Mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is the most boring day ever and can you believe it................
NO HOMEWORK!
and on the one day wish i had some.
*now that is pretty pathetic!*
the television has even gotten boring and now the computer seems boring.
i'm even hot and i'm sitting in the ice cold basement!
i really need to get a life i mean this is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring.
i'm bored and bored and bored and bored...............

you know it's pretty hard to keep typing the same words over and over again!
try it...........
bored and bore dand bored and nbored and bored and bored and bored and vobred and............
ya see! try going faster and faster evry time.


OKAY NOW THIS IS PATHETIC! I'M GETTING AMUSEMENT FROM TYPING A FEW WORDS OVER AND OVER AGAIN!

now i'm gonna leave. goodbye!

I'm With You

You know..........
i love this song.........
Sometimes i just feel like leaving......
Going somewhere new.....
With someone new..........
Leaving the routine............
Changing my way..............
{sigh}

anyways...........enough with the thinking because i'l get into a mood and it won't be fun..........believe me...................
OH! and by the way Shavantay.............how do you like my comment.............i'm not good at words but i think that cross-ex said what i felt...........lol

and i really have nothing to write again so "ta-ta":)

show-off or don't show-off, that is the question!

Have you ever felt like you should show off........
but you shouldn't...........
but you deserve to.................?
well.....................
to day was one of those days i mean i am a lot better than one of my friends............
who dances along with me but.....
i'm not a show-offy person....
atleast i don't like to be...............

anyways today was.........................................................
actually i have nothing to say...........
*really?*
yeah.............well..............bye.

talking to myself in public...........(yes it's in a song)

so how is everyone today!
i'm just dandy!
is that the first time i've written "dandy" before?
hmmmmmmmmm.........
so anyways school is almost over..........
i miss AIM..........
i don't have too much time to post..........
debates start tomorrow...........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

okay i'm fine now i mean my debate is NEXT monday....
*phew!*
what! you are back...........i told you to leave.........
*you can't tell me what to do!*
ggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..............
*giggle*
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRR..........
*nervous giggle*
hehehehe..........okay now i must stop talking to myself i mean i must be going crazy! REALLY!
*..........*
wow it's quiet....................
*................*
he he...............
*.........................*
fine............you can talk!
*hehehehehe*
so i have nothing to talk about so i'm going to go do the homework i was supposed to do when i got down here :^)