The Barrier Within 12/1/06

Even though i am so close,
I feel so far away,
As if a great big barrier,
Is always in the way.

And why i cannot bring myself,
To move the barrier,
Is a question i forever ask,
Not receiving an answer.

Forever standing in my way,
And complicating things,
While others find it so easy,
This simple little thing.

This barrier has culminated,
As the years go by,
And all i do is fear it,
Leading to those rueful lies.

Maybe fear is what it is,
This thought does seem to fit,
Of coming out, of opening up,
Of socializing a bit.

Well if fear is all this barrier is,
I'll overcome it with ease,
Yet here i am still sitting,
This barrier's such a disease.

I'll overcome it one of these days,
I think to myself,
But not without come help,
Because i can't do it all myself.

And that day i will smile,
Like i've never smiled before,
With a new day, a new way,
To live a life with more.

Leaving On A Sour Note 12/4/06

every time i look at him,
hatred fogs my vision,
words are said that never should have been,
leading to more dissension.

he says some things,
i say more back,
and before we know it,
cursings all we lack.

back in my room,
remembering all i've said,
and knowing i hurt him,
though forgiveness sinks like lead-
never to return.

when next we meet,
shame may lightly show in our eyes,
but, ignored, we move on,
talking as if the nights before were lies.

suddenly again, troubled by the day's grief,
we come home and strive for comfort,
but it is not found,
and dust brushes away from the dirt-
that was always there.

till the cycle continues on,
to another day, never broken,
but one day does come,
when, through eachother's eyes, we do not sin.

a happiness comes,
as quickly as time passes,
and then it breaks,
with a poison to kill the masses-
and leave the world dead.

the cycle continued,
the poet wrote,
and we're back where we started,
leaving on a sour note

HEY!
guess what?!


SNOW DAY!!!!!!!

NO SCHOOL!!!!!!

TOTALLY SNOWED IN!!!!!!

kinda wish josh was here cuz i wanna go have a snowball fight!!!

:'(

well no snowball fight........but i can enjoy a day off, right?

;D bye